Oh my god!

I am sooooo confused at the moment... I cant think clearly anymore... just because of one person... must this be so hard?

I don't really need this confusion now, while I am stressed and... argh!

Always... always this must happen to me! I can't really understand myself... am I mad? Or just... scared...?!

HELP!

please, don't wonder, I am really confused and I often use this Journal like a diary...